8/23/2003 07:21:11 PM|||Travis|||

Meditation is good.

I tried it this morning with the holo-sync stuff I downloaded off of Kazzaa. Although it is a little hoaky, at the very least it is some nice relaxing music that cuts out the airport which is very close to where I live. Whether or not the brain syncronization works or not is almost irrelevant. At the very least there is some plasebo effect, where I am now convinced that I can mediate for an hour simply because of this wierd music I listen too.

I am getting back into "Zen and the Brain" and now want to teach a class on it Winter Semester. Its a great topic and would attract quite a crowd. The psyiological implications on the brain in regards to Zen buddism will attract both engineering types along with their literature couterparts. I'll hold it as an ace in my sleeve and prepare for everything so that I have some good guest speakers, a decently sized room and everything in order so that I can get 10-15 people in the class. Having classes with you and your friends (which happened way too often last year) is exactly what I don't want. I want to meet some new and interesting people.

Also- a class on leadership might be in order as well. As I investigate more books on the topic, perhaps I can put together everything I have learned into a class. Or a series. That would be groovy.

And perhaps it makes sense for me to stay here in school for another year. Teach classes, raise my GPA, and perhaps get another degree in literature? I really need to get my shit done while I am young and in school. What I accomplish now will be what I can use to prove my worth later on in life. Its my credibility to others that I know what I am talking about. And if I want to continue on into law or business school, everything on my college transcript counts. So I will follow the advice of my politcally inclined friend Cameron who told me to get good grades before attending Law school at the age of 19. He viewed his life as a train which was approaching a switch in the track- take the high road or the low road. In ten years, your location depends on it.

Perhaps he is right.

Although Jake is trying to go the other route. His college degree is tainted to the point where he probably should not have even graduated. Sure he knows what he is talking about and can "talk the talk" but his credentials are lacking. I don't have to go out on a limb to say that this will close doors for him later on in life. Although, if his game company (or our game company rather) becomes a success (or when it becomes a success) then he will recieve recognition in that respect.

That is what I assumed I would do during my first couple years of college, so I got high and forgot about grades. Silly marks, I told myself- they mean nothing. And as far as learning goes, they do mean nothing as they bear little correlation to intellegence. But, they do provide integrity and demonstrate the ability to work hard. And even if this is silly work that won't come in handy later on in life (such as the ability to solve a multi-variable calculus problem without a calculator) it demonstrates that you can apply your mind to the problem. So the problem becomes less important.

My academic history is marred, as I stated. With a perfect A record for the next two years however, I could turn things around and even explain what happened to me to any interested colleges/parties. It all depends on where I want to go with my life. One thing for sure- getting shitty grades will close down doors in my life, which is something I will not do anymore.

I also want to get my voice heard. This blog is cool and all, but who actually reads it? I got one email from a great old friend recently, who actually looks at this discombobulated mess. I need an editor and a paper sent out to lots of people. Perhaps I can write a column ever week or so. I should start planning now, as there is always a lack of editorials early on in the school year. That is my opportunity to get heard. An essay on the benefits of a low-carb diet could be numero uno on the to-write list. I could then go into religion, Zen and the Mind, politics- you name it.

As long as I can write the write so to speak.

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