9/20/2003 06:08:37 PM|||Travis|||

An emotional trainwreck.

The speed at which things can spiral downward has always amazed me. As if one percieved badness can breed with another like a damn rabbit, suddenly your psyche is overrun with these little pesky nuiances. Its enough to make a grown man cry (as some musicain once said. Or perhaps its just an overused cliche).

The silly thing is that I knew it was coming yesterday, but yesterday was fine. Great day. For some reason the emotional rabbits were on birth control. But not today, they are rampant today.

My only solace is this here hole in the wall.

Oh please, allow me to wallow in my own self-misery. I am sure to be over it likedy split. It is a new year by the way, and the beginning of school always gives me a feeling of exurberence. The raddison was such a shitty place to work for anyways, I wanted to quit for a while.

But there always is an aura of depression surrounding rejection. When someone tells you that you are not good enough for such and such reason, it always hits hard. As in, fuck. I could'a done better than that.

I can roll with the punches though, and my skills are valuable. And marketable. New opportunites await on the horizon.

For now- Gym, yoga and relaxation. I deserve it.

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