9/12/2003 12:55:38 AM|||Travis|||

I have moved.

My new place is smaller, older and louder. I live right next to train tracks, and trains don't care if you are sleeping or awake. They toot their horn and rumble past either way. 3AM? Doesn't matter.

It is organized much more effeciently however. We have setup a webcam, if you can believe that. Here is the link: http://hq.gnosticlabs.com:8080/

If you are my friend, go ahead and have a look. If you are a wierdo that doesn't know me, but has found this site: go ahead. Take a look as well. Its nothing special, your standard office cam.

Its hard to top the last two posts I made. It sucks, but the show must go on. The only thing I would like to talk about is the strong emotion I felt on Wednesday.

I wanted to beat the hell out of my brother. Really, just walk up and nail him right in the face. The issue was an ancient one: I felt that he was not contributing his fair share to project X (where X, this time, was the issues related to moving everything in a 2-bedroom apartment). He was just coding the entire time, and putting everything off as long as he could.

I didn't calm myself down until I slept on this emotion, and awoke to find it silly. I was so mad at the time, I had to sleep without even talking to him. But it was no problem the next day. I found something out.

I will always feel this feeling in some form or another. This, "he didn't do as much as me" bullshit. The quicker I can plough through it and just work hard to complete project X, the more things I can accomplish. I should never use someone else's laziness as an excuse to become lazy myself, or to get pissed at that person. Their loss.

Late post, have school related BS to handle in the morning. A quote for us all before we go to bed? Here is my favorite from Roosevelt.

"It is not the critic who counts;
not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles,
or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.

The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena,
whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood,
who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again;
because there is not effort without error and shortcomings;
but who does actually strive to do the deed;
who knows the great enthusiasm,
the great devotion,
who spends himself in a worthy cause,
who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement
and who at the worst, if he fails,
at least he fails while daring greatly.

So that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls
who know neither victory nor defeat."

--Theodore Roosevelt,
"Man in the Arena" Speech
(April 23, 1910)

Now go out there and dare greatly; you would never want to lie with those cold and timid soles.

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