11/08/2003 06:00:54 PM|||Travis|||

Bi-Polarness

I wonder if there is a history of bi-polar disorder in my family. I know its not serious, as in check-you int the loony bin serious, but it appears that everyone in my family fluxuates between good and bad moods. And good moods are pretty damn good, as I can attest to.

I picked up a book on bi-polar disorder in Borders and read a little about it and some case examples of bi-polar disorder in some clinics. There is one example of a guy who walked into a resturant, starting swinging on a chandeler and thought it was great. He felt like he was God... that nature would respond to his beck and call and that he could modify reality through simply thinking about it.

It are these manic states that the book mentioned are common in greats. These states are ones of hyper-awarness, and perhaps even hyper-ability. Poets can describe things more clearly while in one of these moods. My grandfather was a poet, and perhaps it was due in no small part to the fluxuations of mood that swung into the abnormal in both directions. When you feel good, the world seems like something that you can just grab a hold of and order around. It makes me think that anything is possible.

And perhaps it is.

In other news, I finally found someone to go out with that I can also have fun with. My social life has been dragged down by people who want to drink, roll in groups of ten guys and never get anywhere with women. I have found one person interested in working on the "game" of meeting and attracting girls. Its pretty insane, but we view it like a game of chess, and walk around using various strategies on ladies and discuss their effectiveness afterward. We are not affraid, we talk to just about all of them.

It was our first night out and we didn't get into a fun set that lasted longer than ten mintues. Still a great learning experience though.

yeuuuuup.

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