5/21/2005 08:17:00 PM|||Travis|||

Lots of lostness as of late. What is with that? Perhaps it is the impending graduation and me going out into the real world. Financial stress. And even now relationship stress. Compounded with heavy drinking, this is an oppresive combination. Dunno what to do but hopefully there will be some resolution in the near future for all this jazz.

I just read a couple of Billy Corgan's entries in his diary/blog thing on his website. Some of the better posts were dating back in the late 80's of course, when he was still a struggling musician trying to cope with similar feelings of dispair. He tried to get a job as a simple book stacker and was completely rejected. The manager asked him, after anger levels on both sides were high, where he saw himself in five years and his response was something like "I am going to be famous and not stacking stupid fucking books for some store". And that was that.

His entries are also and interesting insight into the live of a famous person. Aparently people found out where he lived and would do silly things like have sex on his front porch, smash pumpkins on his doorstep (very ironic, yes) and just generally stare at him all the time. He felt like he was constantly on display and had to hide from the world.

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